I'm more than halfway done with my undergrad years. Well... probably. In any case, I'm trying to figure out what's next, and one of the things I'm seriously considering is this:
OU's Adult and Higher Education Master's Program
So... still looking into this, talking to people about it, etc. And, y'know... we'll see how the weather broadcast thing works out, too.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Remind me not to explode
Some days, you just need to rant. And I'm not quite sure when today (tonight) became one of those days (nights), but if I don't, I'm either going to explode or kill someone.
Person K got all pissy tonight because I hadn't realized she did programming things in high school. Mind, I don't think her high school ones were as involved as the programming I'm doing today, but clearly she views it otherwise. Fine, I'll take her word for it. But she has no reason to get pissy at me for that: she's never said anything about it. And when she said she did, I asked questions to get the relevant details: what scale of programming, were you working alone, etc. And apparently now she's mad at me.
This all came up because she decided to have her birthday party the night before my giant program. That's fine. That's when her birthday is. But here's the thing: her birthday party is apparently going to involve spending a night at a cabin an hour and a half away. Sorry, I can't commit to going to that. I'm going to be stressed as it is without being hours from cell service or wifi. It's my BIG program of the semester, and I'm going to be focused on/stressed about that. So I told her I'd try to make it, if everyone else is out there. Oops. The "if" statement pissed her off, because apparently she thinks everybody is going to say the same thing; she has decided that she alone is not good enough to deserve our company. Or at least she's decided we feel that way. Good God! Yes, I phrased my statement poorly, but all I meant was that it's very early in the planning stages and if EVERYONE else has conflicts, then it would be wiser to cancel than to rent a cabin for her and maybe a couple hours of me.
I'm tired. I'm stressed. But my mind has been racing too much the last few days to let me sleep before 3 a.m. And here I am, almost 3:30. Fuck.
I need someone or something to calm me down right now. Someone. Oh, yes, back to that. Being single in this town effing sucks. I mean, at home, yeah, I had a whole two friends, and that wasn't great, but both of them were in long or long-ish distance relationships and I don't have to deal directly with all the couple-y-ness. My roommate is with her boyfriend 24/7. He's a great guy. No, really, he is. In fact, it's been decided that, the way he and I get along, we must be long-lost siblings. But they are a couple and I am not in a couple, and they do couple things and are around all the time and aaaagh. Yay, rubbing singleness in my face. Even K, who is notoriously... noncommitted, shall we say, is in an actual relationship now. I've been ridiculously needy lately, and given what I'm looking for, I probably wouldn't want to be with me at the moment. So I guess I can't get mad at the rest of the world for that.
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*EXPLODES*
Person K got all pissy tonight because I hadn't realized she did programming things in high school. Mind, I don't think her high school ones were as involved as the programming I'm doing today, but clearly she views it otherwise. Fine, I'll take her word for it. But she has no reason to get pissy at me for that: she's never said anything about it. And when she said she did, I asked questions to get the relevant details: what scale of programming, were you working alone, etc. And apparently now she's mad at me.
This all came up because she decided to have her birthday party the night before my giant program. That's fine. That's when her birthday is. But here's the thing: her birthday party is apparently going to involve spending a night at a cabin an hour and a half away. Sorry, I can't commit to going to that. I'm going to be stressed as it is without being hours from cell service or wifi. It's my BIG program of the semester, and I'm going to be focused on/stressed about that. So I told her I'd try to make it, if everyone else is out there. Oops. The "if" statement pissed her off, because apparently she thinks everybody is going to say the same thing; she has decided that she alone is not good enough to deserve our company. Or at least she's decided we feel that way. Good God! Yes, I phrased my statement poorly, but all I meant was that it's very early in the planning stages and if EVERYONE else has conflicts, then it would be wiser to cancel than to rent a cabin for her and maybe a couple hours of me.
I'm tired. I'm stressed. But my mind has been racing too much the last few days to let me sleep before 3 a.m. And here I am, almost 3:30. Fuck.
I need someone or something to calm me down right now. Someone. Oh, yes, back to that. Being single in this town effing sucks. I mean, at home, yeah, I had a whole two friends, and that wasn't great, but both of them were in long or long-ish distance relationships and I don't have to deal directly with all the couple-y-ness. My roommate is with her boyfriend 24/7. He's a great guy. No, really, he is. In fact, it's been decided that, the way he and I get along, we must be long-lost siblings. But they are a couple and I am not in a couple, and they do couple things and are around all the time and aaaagh. Yay, rubbing singleness in my face. Even K, who is notoriously... noncommitted, shall we say, is in an actual relationship now. I've been ridiculously needy lately, and given what I'm looking for, I probably wouldn't want to be with me at the moment. So I guess I can't get mad at the rest of the world for that.
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*EXPLODES*
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